The day I buried Emily, all I had left were our photos and memories. But when something slipped from behind our engagement picture that night, my hands started shaking. What I discovered made me question if Iโd ever really known my wife at all.
The funeral home had tied a black ribbon on our front door. I stared at it, my key suspended in the lock, wondering whoโd thought that was necessary.
As if the neighbors didnโt already know that Iโd been at the cemetery all afternoon, watching them lower my wife into the ground while Rev. Matthews talked about angels and eternal rest.
My hands shook as I finally got the door open. The house smelled wrong โ like leather polish and sympathy casseroles.
Emilyโs sister Jane had โhelpedโ by cleaning while I was at the hospital during those final days. Now everything gleamed with an artificial brightness that made my teeth hurt.
โHome sweet home, right, Em?โ I called out automatically, then caught myself. The silence that answered felt like a physical blow.
I loosened my tie, the blue one Emily had bought me last Christmas, and kicked off my dress shoes. They hit the wall with dull thuds.
Emily would have scolded me for that, pressing her lips together in the way she had, trying not to smile while she lectured me about scuff marks.
โSorry, honey,โ I muttered, but I left the shoes where they lay.
Our bedroom was worse than the rest of the house. Jane had changed the sheets โ probably trying to be kind โ but the fresh linen smell just emphasized that Emilyโs scent was gone.
The bed was made with hospital corners, every wrinkle smoothed away, erasing the casual mess that had been our life together.
โThis isnโt real,โ I said to the empty room. โThis canโt be real.โ
But it was. The sympathy cards on the dresser proved it, as did the pills on the nightstand that hadnโt been enough to save her in the end.
It had all happened so suddenly. Em got sick last year, but she fought it. Chemotherapy took an immense toll on her, but I was there to support her every step of the way. The cancer eventually went into remission.
We thought weโd won. Then a check-up showed it was back, and it was everywhere.
Em fought like a puma right up until the end, butโฆ but it was a losing battle. I could see that now.
I fell onto her side of the bed, not bothering to change out of my funeral clothes. The mattress didnโt even hold her shape anymore. Had Jane flipped it? The thought made me irrationally angry.
โFifteen years,โ I whispered into Emilyโs pillow. โFifteen years, and this is how it ends? A ribbon on the door and casseroles in the fridge?โ
My eyes landed on our engagement photo, the silver frame catching the late afternoon light. Emily looked so alive in it, her yellow sundress bright against the summer sky, her laugh caught mid-burst as I spun her around.
I grabbed it, needing to be closer to that moment and the joy we both felt then.
โRemember that day, Em? You said the camera would capture our souls. Said thatโs why you hated having your picture taken, becauseโโ
My fingers caught on something behind the frame.
There was a bump under the backing that shouldnโt have been there.
I traced it again, frowning. Without really thinking about what I was doing, I pried the backing loose. Something slipped out, floating to the carpet like a fallen leaf.
My heart stopped.
It was another photograph, old and slightly curved as if it had been handled often before being hidden away.
In the photo, Emily (God, she looked so young) was sitting in a hospital bed, cradling a newborn wrapped in a pink blanket.
Her face was different than Iโd ever seen it: exhausted, and scared, but with a fierce love that took my breath away.
I couldnโt understand what I was looking at. Although we tried, Emily and I were never able to have kids, so whose baby was this?
I Was Looking At a Photo of My Late Wife and Me When Something Fell Out of the Frame and Made Me Go Pale
The day I buried Emily, all I had left were our photos and memories. But when something slipped from behind our engagement picture that night, my hands started shaking. What I discovered made me question if Iโd ever really known my wife at all.
The funeral home had tied a black ribbon on our front door. I stared at it, my key suspended in the lock, wondering whoโd thought that was necessary.
A black ribbon attached to a doorknob | Source: Midjourney
As if the neighbors didnโt already know that Iโd been at the cemetery all afternoon, watching them lower my wife into the ground while Rev. Matthews talked about angels and eternal rest.
My hands shook as I finally got the door open. The house smelled wrong โ like leather polish and sympathy casseroles.
Emilyโs sister Jane had โhelpedโ by cleaning while I was at the hospital during those final days. Now everything gleamed with an artificial brightness that made my teeth hurt.
A home entrance hallway | Source: Pexels
โHome sweet home, right, Em?โ I called out automatically, then caught myself. The silence that answered felt like a physical blow.
I loosened my tie, the blue one Emily had bought me last Christmas, and kicked off my dress shoes. They hit the wall with dull thuds.
Emily would have scolded me for that, pressing her lips together in the way she had, trying not to smile while she lectured me about scuff marks.
A heartbroken man looking down | Source: Midjourney
โSorry, honey,โ I muttered, but I left the shoes where they lay.
Our bedroom was worse than the rest of the house. Jane had changed the sheets โ probably trying to be kind โ but the fresh linen smell just emphasized that Emilyโs scent was gone.
The bed was made with hospital corners, every wrinkle smoothed away, erasing the casual mess that had been our life together.
โThis isnโt real,โ I said to the empty room. โThis canโt be real.โ
A bedroom | Source: Pexels
But it was. The sympathy cards on the dresser proved it, as did the pills on the nightstand that hadnโt been enough to save her in the end.
It had all happened so suddenly. Em got sick last year, but she fought it. Chemotherapy took an immense toll on her, but I was there to support her every step of the way. The cancer eventually went into remission.
We thought weโd won. Then a check-up showed it was back, and it was everywhere.
A couple staring grimly at each other | Source: Midjourney
Em fought like a puma right up until the end, butโฆ but it was a losing battle. I could see that now.
I fell onto her side of the bed, not bothering to change out of my funeral clothes. The mattress didnโt even hold her shape anymore. Had Jane flipped it? The thought made me irrationally angry.
โFifteen years,โ I whispered into Emilyโs pillow. โFifteen years, and this is how it ends? A ribbon on the door and casseroles in the fridge?โ
A heartbroken man | Source: Midjourney
My eyes landed on our engagement photo, the silver frame catching the late afternoon light. Emily looked so alive in it, her yellow sundress bright against the summer sky, her laugh caught mid-burst as I spun her around.
I grabbed it, needing to be closer to that moment and the joy we both felt then.
โRemember that day, Em? You said the camera would capture our souls. Said thatโs why you hated having your picture taken, becauseโโ
My fingers caught on something behind the frame.
A man holding a photo | Source: Midjourney
There was a bump under the backing that shouldnโt have been there.
I traced it again, frowning. Without really thinking about what I was doing, I pried the backing loose. Something slipped out, floating to the carpet like a fallen leaf.
My heart stopped.
It was another photograph, old and slightly curved as if it had been handled often before being hidden away.
A stunned man | Source: Midjourney
In the photo, Emily (God, she looked so young) was sitting in a hospital bed, cradling a newborn wrapped in a pink blanket.
Her face was different than Iโd ever seen it: exhausted, and scared, but with a fierce love that took my breath away.
I couldnโt understand what I was looking at. Although we tried, Emily and I were never able to have kids, so whose baby was this?
A confused man | Source: Midjourney
With trembling fingers, I turned the photo over. Emilyโs handwriting, but shakier than I knew it: โMama will always love you.โ
Below that was a phone number.
โWhat?โ The word came out as a croak. โEmily, what is this?โ
There was only one way to find out.
The phone felt heavy in my hand as I dialed, not caring that it was nearly midnight. Each ring echoed in my head like a church bell.
โHello?โ A woman answered, her voice warm but cautious.
โIโm sorry for calling so late.โ My voice sounded strange to my ears. โMy name is James. Iโฆ I just found a photograph of my wife Emily with a baby, and this numberโฆโ
The silence stretched so long I thought sheโd hung up.
โOh,โ she finally said, so softly I almost missed it. โOh, James. Iโve been waiting for this call for years. Itโs been ages since Emily got in touch.โ
โEmily died.โ The words tasted like ashes. โThe funeral was today.โ
โIโm so sorry.โ Her voice cracked with genuine grief. โIโm Sarah. Iโฆ I adopted Emilyโs daughter, Lily.โ
The room tilted sideways. I gripped the edge of the bed. โDaughter?โ
โShe was nineteen,โ Sarah explained gently. โA freshman in college. She knew she couldnโt give the baby the life she deserved. It was the hardest decision she ever made.โ
โWe tried for years to have children,โ I said, anger suddenly blazing through my grief. โYears of treatments, specialists, disappointments. She never said a word about having a baby before me. Never.โ
โShe was terrified,โ Sarah said. โTerrified youโd judge her, terrified youโd leave. She loved you so much, James. Sometimes love makes us do impossible things.โ
I closed my eyes, remembering her tears during fertility treatments, and how sheโd grip my hand too tight whenever we passed playgrounds.
Iโd assumed it was because we were both so desperate to have a child, but now I wondered how much of that came from longing for the daughter she gave up.
โTell me about her,โ I heard myself say. โTell me about Lily.โ
Sarahโs voice brightened. โSheโs twenty-five now. A kindergarten teacher, if you can believe it. She has Emilyโs laugh, her way with people. Sheโs always known she was adopted, and she knows about Emily. Wouldโฆ would you like to meet her?โ
โOf course!โ I replied.
The next morning, I sat in a corner booth at a cafรฉ, too nervous to touch my coffee. The bell above the door chimed, and I looked up.
It was like being punched in the chest.
She had Emilyโs eyes and her smile. She even tucked her hair behind her ear like Em wouldโve as she scanned the room. When our gazes met, we both knew.
โJames?โ Her voice wavered.
I stood, nearly knocking over my chair. โLily.โ
She rushed forward, wrapping her arms around me like sheโd been waiting her whole life to do it. I held her close, breathing in the scent of her shampoo โ lavender, just like Emilyโs had been.
โI canโt believe youโre here,โ she whispered against my shoulder. โWhen Mom called this morningโฆ Iโve always wondered about you, about what kind of man my mother married.โ